\documentclass[10pt]{article} \usepackage{fancyhdr} \usepackage{poemscol} \usepackage{lmodern} \begin{document} \poemtitle{A Birthday Present} \sequencetitle{Ariel} \begin{poem} \begin{stanza} What is this, behind this veil, is it ugly, is it beautiful?\verseline It is shimmering, has it breasts, has it edges? \end{stanza} \begin{stanza} I am sure it is unique, I am sure it is what I want.\verseline When I am quiet at my cooking I feel it looking, I feel it thinking \end{stanza} \begin{stanza} 'Is this the one I am to appear for,\verseline Is this the elect one, the one with black eye-pits and a scar? \end{stanza} \begin{stanza} Measuring the flour, cutting off the surplus,\verseline Adhering to rules, to rules, to rules. \end{stanza} \begin{stanza} Is this the one for the annunciation?\verseline My god, what a laugh!' \end{stanza} \begin{stanza} But it shimmers, it does not stop, and I think it wants me.\verseline I would not mind if it was bones, or a pearl button. \end{stanza} \begin{stanza} I do not want much of a present, anyway, this year.\verseline After all, I am alive only by accident. \end{stanza} \begin{stanza} I would have killed myself gladly that time any possible way.\verseline Now there are these veils, shimmering like curtains, \end{stanza} \begin{stanza} The diaphanous satins of a January window\verseline White as babies' bedding and glittering with dead breath. O ivory! \end{stanza} \begin{stanza} It must be a tusk there, a ghost-column.\verseline Can you not see I do not mind what it is. \end{stanza} \begin{stanza} Can you not give it to me?\verseline Do not be ashamed --- I do not mind if it is small. \end{stanza} \begin{stanza} Do not be mean, I am ready for enormity.\verseline Let us sit down to it, one on either side, admiring the gleam, \end{stanza} \begin{stanza} The glaze, the mirrory variety of it.\verseline Let us eat our last supper at it, like a hospital plate. \end{stanza} \begin{stanza} I know why you will not give it to me,\verseline You are terrified \end{stanza} \begin{stanza} The world will go up in a shriek, and your head with it,\verseline Bossed, brazen, an antique shield, \end{stanza} \begin{stanza} A marvel to your great-grandchildren.\verseline Do not be afraid, it is not so. \end{stanza} \begin{stanza} I will only take it and go aside quietly.\verseline You will not even hear me opening it, no paper crackle, \end{stanza} \begin{stanza} No falling ribbons, no scream at the end.\verseline I do not think you credit me with this discretion. \end{stanza} \begin{stanza} If you only knew how the veils were killing my days.\verseline To you they are only transparencies, clear air. \end{stanza} \begin{stanza} But my god, the clouds are like cotton ---\verseline Armies of them. They are carbon monoxide. \end{stanza} \begin{stanza} Sweetly, sweetly I breathe in,\verseline Filling my veins with invisibles, with the million \end{stanza} \begin{stanza} Probable motes that tick the years off my life.\verseline You are silver-suited for the occasion. O adding machine-- \end{stanza} \begin{stanza} Is it impossible for you to let something go and have it go whole?\verseline Must you stamp each piece in purple, \end{stanza} \begin{stanza} Must you kill what you can?\verseline There is this one thing I want today, and only you can give it to me. \end{stanza} \begin{stanza} It stands at my window, big as the sky.\verseline It breathes from my sheets, the cold, dead center \end{stanza} \begin{stanza} Where spilt lives congeal and stiffen to history.\verseline Let it not come by the mail, finger by finger. \end{stanza} \begin{stanza} Let it not come by word of mouth, I should be sixty\verseline By the time the whole of it was delivered, and too numb to use it. \end{stanza} \begin{stanza} Only let down the veil, the veil, the veil.\verseline If it were death \end{stanza} \begin{stanza} I would admire the deep gravity of it, its timeless eyes.\verseline I would know you were serious. \end{stanza} \begin{stanza} There would be a nobility then, there would be a birthday.\verseline And the knife not carve, but enter \end{stanza} \begin{stanza} Pure and clean as the cry of a baby\verseline And the universe slide from my side. \end{stanza} \end{poem} \end{document}